I just want to share my thoughts with you, maybe someone can relate?

I understand what you mean. I don't feel that way now but it's my fear that I'll wake up married and kids and just be like this is not what I wanted, who am I? Luckily, I want be end up married with kids but I NEVER want to stop feeling like I'm a talented, smart, well-adjusted, free-thinking, resilient woman. And just because you may not FEEL that way anymore that doesn't mean that you aren't. You don't lose your intelligence when you start feeling stagnant you just lose your will. Maybe you just need to adjust your priority set. Was your (total) happiness contingent on going to Cambridge? Just because you won't (may not?) go there doesn't mean you can't achieve your dreams. What were you going to do there, can't you do it somewhere else? You can't reverse the clock but you can still get on a track that will led you to a fulfilling life. You'll find something someday that you can really take pleasure in and work at and enjoy you just have to wait till you find it. I hope this feeling doesn't last fellow life warrior, that's all I can really say.