Why is this happening?? PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!?

A while back I got a koran for a school report, ever since then it has just been sitting on my book shelf but every time I look at it it makes me want to be a muslim, every time I see the Arabic writing or the beautiful art on the cover, any time I see this koran it makes me want to say the Shahadah a million times!! BUT, when I'm not around this book I am back to being regular old me, I am back to being fine with my religion and I even think how silly I was just moments ago.... Why is this? I agree with everything that the koran teaches, and I love the koran and Prophet SOOOOOO much, I would love to be a Muslim, except that My family has a problem with Islam because of the terrorist attacks (I have explained many times that it's not Islam's fault but they won't listen) and I think that's one of the VERY few reasons I am not a muslim now.... Is my subconscious trying to tell me something, could this be why when I'm around the koran I go crazy? Or is it something else? PLEASE HELP ME!!!!